I need a miracle. (504)

I'm homeless again.
I know I am not perfect and I will state my faults but the thing is I need someone that's morally good.
I know I didn't make the right choices in life and I'm paying for it now thank God I didn't have any children thank God I never got pregnant! I used to have sex when I was a lot younger before I got raped.
I got raped by an ex-boyfriend; my last boyfriend I had that's why I'm not in a relationship.
If anyone wants to help someone who's trying their hardest to be a better person and that means me having to take the chance to get a job and get fired unless I don't have panic attacks and talk too much and get fired for being too honest.
That's my problem I'm morbidly honest.
And, I didn't save my money when I had a job.
I don't I'm telling you I don't know what's going on in my life I've had money I've had a house I've had this I've had that now I need the help from somebody who can help me who wants to help me.
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https://youtu.
be/wvjc7cJye6Y?si=EcC3Sd8FmOiwPsO4 The reason I put this out there is because the only people answering the ad want me to be a live in girlfriend.
Doesn't anyone respect that I don't want to use my body to get what I want? Doesn't anyone like wholesome people anymore? Doesn't anybody like a weirdo dork that loved music until she found Jesus and now nobody likes me because I never had sex to begin with like other people.
I had a family member try and hurt me "sexually" when I was either six or eight years old.
That's another reason I don't want to have sex I don't want to use my body to have to get what I want I want to work it's just before I was clinically depressed and I couldn't get out the bed and all I could do was communicate with one person why because I needed somebody to be nice to me someone to tell me they love me.